the feeling of free
Today marked the last day of classes for my summer semester. I have one month that belongs entirely to me before I head back to complete my degree.
This past semester was not fun. It was not enjoyable. I ended up in two classes that were not what I had anticipated or hoped for. They were not suited to my strengths or interests. Though there were only two, the semester was heavy because I wasn't actively perusing learnings which would contribute to my goals (besides the credits I would earn from them). I worked hard at keeping a positive mindset and pushed through the long few months of what didn't seem to me to be the best use of my hours. But now, I am done.
The weight of these two classes has shocked me today, after having it disappear at 4:00pm PST. I feel the need to run barefoot through a field, but even more so, I feel like I can. Because I am free. I feel like I can make the time to do what truly brings bliss into my life without guilt. It's an empowering experience.
I always ensured I would do things that made me happy in the semester because that is such an important part of maintaining balance. But school, by its nature, required a sense of priority I didn't fully want to give it, but did. This delayed my capabilities of going after goals I wanted to get to in the immediate moment. Such as bringing my vision of a shop to life, filled with intention based goodies to connect with your true self and help you achieve your big goals.
And so, with the time ahead of me, I will be ensuring I actively pursue meaningful bliss with intention. I will take advantage of my temporary, complete freedom. And who knows, I might be doing a small shop opening in the near future. Or maybe I'll spend the month with my feet in the grass. We'll have to wait and see what this freedom brings.