so the lemons appeared

You may have noticed it's been almost a month since I last posted. Let's say the past four weeks have turned my world topsy-turvy. You know the saying 'when life gives you lemons'? Yeah, life pelted me with lemons. But I'm finally starting to make lemonade. 

First, let's catch you up. I messed up, big time, for a couple of clients. Had a mini panic attack. Worked hard to try to make up for my mistakes all while realizing something I wasn't ready to admit. Feeling overwhelmed with stress, I messed up with my anti-depressant and suddenly found myself in withdrawal which, if you must know, is terrible and terrifying. Finally admitted what I was scared of: I don't like freelancing. Accepted this didn't mean I was a failure. All client contracts wrapped up. Went into work the next day still in withdrawal and received notice I would be laid off in two weeks. 

I would officially be completely unemployed. 

Then I had a major panic attack. Thanks to my wonderful parents and some great friends, I got through it rather quickly. I got in to see my doctor. I started breathing again. I wrapped up my last two weeks at the day job. I began the unemployed life with a world of possibility before me. 

It's a really scary time, and I did bury my head in the sand for a while. But I snapped myself out of it and have started to pick up the pieces. And I have a plan that will turn these lemons into some of the best lemonade ever. 

Promise I'll keep you in the loop! 


Location: Various
Photographer: Megan te Boekhorst
Camera: Canon 60D